Closure.

At the end of the day, if someone wants to be in your life, they will be. Truly, if they are capable, they will make the effort, they will show up.

If they do not -- let that be your closure.

However, you do not have to hate them.

You do not have to remember their contribution to your life as anything but beautiful. Do not ruin them in your mind, do not grip until you feel resentment. Instead, love them without attachment. Love the lessons they taught you.

Wish them well every single time you think about them. Miss them, but do not ache for them to come back. If the people in your life left because they were not ready to value you, or love you, or be there for you, do not wish for them back, do not ask for them to be more than they can be at the moment. Wish for them to figure themselves out. Wish for them to grow. They are on their own journey -- a journey you are not a part of. And that is okay. You have to learn that, that is okay.

So instead of focusing on the people who left, focus on the people in your life who have chosen to be there. Focus on the ones who stayed, on the ones who appreciate you and respect you. Focus on the people who match the love you give them. Focus on the people who empower you and grow you and make your life beautiful.

You are surrounded by human beings who will not shy away from the love you give. You are surrounded by human beings who know that they want you in their life, people who show you that every single day. Do not take them for granted. Do not lose touch of what you have, chasing what you no longer do.

Trust me when I say --

You will miss out on beautiful things if you continue to stay rooted in all of the ways you were wronged, if you continue to let your past pull you from experiencing what the present has to offer you. Do not close yourself off to your potential. Instead, open yourself to the world, and allow for it to fill that space with the kinds of people, the kind of moments, and the kind of experiences that exhilarate you, that compel you -- that make you love yourself, and your life, and what you have to offer, more and more each day.

P/s : Jumpa beluncas hijau besaaar

 

Guidance.

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Talk to Allah,

if you are confused about someone.

He will either move your heart closer or push you away.

Signs will show up, you will hear something about them, you will see a side you have not seen before, you will slowly begin to make a decision and you will eventually figure out if that is the right person for you.

Talk to Allah,

if you do not understand why certain things are not happening or why certain blessings are delayed. Somehow, He will give you assurance that your patience will pay off - that He is planning something far bigger and greater than what you had hoped for.

You will understand, in time, that maybe you were not ready to receive what you wanted when you really wanted it. You will understand that the things you wish or pray for change over time. You grow and you realize that what you wish for a year ago is totally different than what you wish for now.

--

The thing is talking to Allah does not fix you overnight.

But it gives you the tools and the resources you need to

overcome the confusion, overcome the hardships

and stay hopeful that better things are coming in your way.

Maybe we are always looking for a quick fix,

but quick fixes do not last.

They break easily.

Healing takes time.

Finding what is really right for you is a long and tumultuous journey. Miracle take time but they happen and only Allah can make them happen.

And when you learn how to talk to Allah, solitude becomes sweeter and somehow you feel safer because you know that there is nothing you cannot handle.

Everything will fall into place.

Everything will be okay.

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P/s : Esok pulun open house raya. Hiks!

Berusaha.

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Sekarang, 

aku hanya ingin membuat diriku baik-baik sahaja tanpa harus menjalani hidup dengan keliru.

Meski kadang-kadang aku memang tak baik-baik ataupun harus tak baik-baik sahaja.

Agar aku tetap mengerti bagaimana mengendalikan diriku sendiri.

Sekarang,

aku ingin bertanggungjawab pada diriku sendiri.

Memperjuangkan diriku agar aku tak salah langkah lagi

dan tak lagi terjebak dalam kenangan yang membuatku terluka.

Sekarang,

aku tak lagi mahu mencari-cari kesedihan agar aku dikasihani.

Berpura-pura tegar agar aku tak merasa tertolak.

Sekarang,

aku tak mahu lagi mempermainkan diriku sendiri.

Mengait-ngaitkan masa sekarang dengan luka-luka yang sudah lama.

Sekarang,

aku ingin menjadi diriku sendiri.

Menyayangi diriku sendiri dengan ikhlas.

Aku akan mengendalikan diriku.

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Aku akan berusaha.

✨ 

P/s : O' Ramadhan, i love you.