Guidance.

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Talk to Allah,

if you are confused about someone.

He will either move your heart closer or push you away.

Signs will show up, you will hear something about them, you will see a side you have not seen before, you will slowly begin to make a decision and you will eventually figure out if that is the right person for you.

Talk to Allah,

if you do not understand why certain things are not happening or why certain blessings are delayed. Somehow, He will give you assurance that your patience will pay off - that He is planning something far bigger and greater than what you had hoped for.

You will understand, in time, that maybe you were not ready to receive what you wanted when you really wanted it. You will understand that the things you wish or pray for change over time. You grow and you realize that what you wish for a year ago is totally different than what you wish for now.

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The thing is talking to Allah does not fix you overnight.

But it gives you the tools and the resources you need to

overcome the confusion, overcome the hardships

and stay hopeful that better things are coming in your way.

Maybe we are always looking for a quick fix,

but quick fixes do not last.

They break easily.

Healing takes time.

Finding what is really right for you is a long and tumultuous journey. Miracle take time but they happen and only Allah can make them happen.

And when you learn how to talk to Allah, solitude becomes sweeter and somehow you feel safer because you know that there is nothing you cannot handle.

Everything will fall into place.

Everything will be okay.

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P/s : Esok pulun open house raya. Hiks!

Berusaha.

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Sekarang, 

aku hanya ingin membuat diriku baik-baik sahaja tanpa harus menjalani hidup dengan keliru.

Meski kadang-kadang aku memang tak baik-baik ataupun harus tak baik-baik sahaja.

Agar aku tetap mengerti bagaimana mengendalikan diriku sendiri.

Sekarang,

aku ingin bertanggungjawab pada diriku sendiri.

Memperjuangkan diriku agar aku tak salah langkah lagi

dan tak lagi terjebak dalam kenangan yang membuatku terluka.

Sekarang,

aku tak lagi mahu mencari-cari kesedihan agar aku dikasihani.

Berpura-pura tegar agar aku tak merasa tertolak.

Sekarang,

aku tak mahu lagi mempermainkan diriku sendiri.

Mengait-ngaitkan masa sekarang dengan luka-luka yang sudah lama.

Sekarang,

aku ingin menjadi diriku sendiri.

Menyayangi diriku sendiri dengan ikhlas.

Aku akan mengendalikan diriku.

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Aku akan berusaha.

✨ 

P/s : O' Ramadhan, i love you.

She.

She is kingless yet a queen.

She knows how to turn a mere kingdom to a greatest empire.

She has mastered carrying a heavy heart, a messy soul

and a reckless mind altogether.

Strong she is.

She has the ability to turn her history to her story.

Defined by no man.

She is her own story.

Both war and woman she is.

You can pull her down.

But you can't take away her strength.

Never interpret her silence as weakness.

"Sometimes the air stills, before the onset of a hurricane."

Kind as the sky --

wild as wave.

She's 💖

 

P/s : Naif. Not bad huh

Teruskan.

 

🌱

Seperti rumah usang tidak berpenghuni, kenangan juga barangkali dimamah usia.

Makin jauh dari asal-usulnya dimakan waktu, lama-lama dilupakan juga.

Ada manis yang berbaki, disimpan rapi, dikenang hingga ke hujung usia.

Ada pahit yang dilepaskan, dilupakan dengan harapan tak dikenang-kenang.

Ada yang berdarah, biarlah sembuh.

Ada yang tenggelam, teruslah karam.

Usah gusar, jangan lemah.

Jauh lagi perjalanan, terus pandang depan.

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P/s : Semoga kekal untuk diwariskan.

Self love.

A long back when I asked my mom when will I fall in love, where is my prince charming? She said to me that there is a right time for everything to happen, till then let your life happen.

I never said I don't wanna fall in love, in fact falling in love with myself made me more aware of love, made me realize what love is exactly, made me realize how I should treat someone right. I don't know what others think but I feel that when you treat yourself right, you treat others right.

My idea of love is being myself and let the lover be himself too, my idea of love teaches me to let people breathe freely even while being with someone else. It's not his responsibility to build an empire for me, it's my responsibility to be the person I wish to be, no one has to do it for me, they just have to live it with me.

I am busy loving myself, I am exploring myself, I am finding myself, I am not looking for a lover because love must be looking for both of us and will find us at the right time. Till then and beyond that, it's me who should treat me right.

"A queen without a king is busy loving herself."

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P/s : Calm down and breathe.