I may have met you already, or maybe I haven't yet.
We maybe breathing the same air in this small, quiet city or maybe we are still thousands of miles away right now. I might get to be with you tomorrow or the next day or some years from now. But it doesn't matter because today, I am one day closer.
Right now, I am still in no rush. I probably am not that ready. I am still on the process of being my best self. If I get to meet you at this moment, you might not be my first priority yet. I still spend most of my time building up my career, and I still don't have time to bake for you when you crave for a slice of moist chocolate cake. But, I am preparing myself to become the independent woman that you could grow with.
You also should understand that I have flaws that took me more than twenty years to love. I don't know if you will learn to love them, but I hope you do. My hair doesn't stay in place most of the time, it always messily falls on my face. I don't have the prettiest hand to hold or the brightest eyes to look at. You might also find it weird how my nose wrinkles when I laugh. I am also not attractive when I am fast asleep, but who knows? Maybe those imperfections are what will make you love me even more.
I also want you to know that I am not scratch-free masterpiece. I've damaged a couple of times before. I've been cheated on and that's probably what made me distrustful. I've fought battles where I ended up losing. They probably made me tough. Tougher that needed, actually. You won't imagine how lost I have gotten before you came and how I've been dying for you to find me. I've been waiting for you to embrace the mess that I've become, but I also know that there will come a time that you would hurt me. However unlike the rest, seeing me hurt will hurt you twice as much.
Lastly, I want you to know that I am not easy to love. There will be times where I will get mad over the smallest things. I will always ask you to remind me that I am wanted, I would like to hear that over and over - upon seeing your face in the morning and before I close my eyes at night. I also want you to know that on rough days when I am at the verge of giving up, all you have to do is to lock me up in your arms because deep down, I don't want a second in my life without you.
Indeed above all these, I will always strive to be worthy. I will make the best coffee for you in the morning. I will be there for you after a long day at work and look at you like a superhero who just saved the world. I will give you everything that the past has failed to give you.
I will take all your pain away and I will be the only one you call "home".
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