You.

I may have met you already, or maybe I haven't yet.

We maybe breathing the same air in this small, quiet city or maybe we are still thousands of miles away right now. I might get to be with you tomorrow or the next day or some years from now. But it doesn't matter because today, I am one day closer.

Right now, I am still in no rush. I probably am not that ready. I am still on the process of being my best self. If I get to meet you at this moment, you might not be my first priority yet. I still spend most of my time building up my career, and I still don't have time to bake for you when you crave for a slice of moist chocolate cake. But, I am preparing myself to become the independent woman that you could grow with.

You also should understand that I have flaws that took me more than twenty years to love. I don't know if you will learn to love them, but I hope you do. My hair doesn't stay in place most of the time, it always messily falls on my face. I don't have the prettiest hand to hold or the brightest eyes to look at. You might also find it weird how my nose wrinkles when I laugh. I am also not attractive when I am fast asleep, but who knows? Maybe those imperfections are what will make you love me even more.

I also want you to know that I am not scratch-free masterpiece. I've damaged a couple of times before. I've been cheated on and that's probably what made me distrustful. I've fought battles where I ended up losing. They probably made me tough. Tougher that needed, actually. You won't imagine how lost I have gotten before you came and how I've been dying for you to find me. I've been waiting for you to embrace the mess that I've become, but I also know that there will come a time that you would hurt me. However unlike the rest, seeing me hurt will hurt you twice as much.

Lastly, I want you to know that I am not easy to love. There will be times where I will get mad over the smallest things. I will always ask you to remind me that I am wanted, I would like to hear that over and over - upon seeing your face in the morning and before I close my eyes at night. I also want you to know that on rough days when I am at the verge of giving up, all you have to do is to lock me up in your arms because deep down, I don't want a second in my life without you.

Indeed above all these, I will always strive to be worthy. I will make the best coffee for you in the morning. I will be there for you after a long day at work and look at you like a superhero who just saved the world. I will give you everything that the past has failed to give you.

I will take all your pain away and I will be the only one you call "home".

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Sometimes.

Sometimes when people become religious, they feel that it is necessary

to become the police for the rest of the world.

Whether it means belittling, insulting or condemning others.

We should always remember, the most religious from us was our Prophet (pbuh)

and he wasn't rude or obnoxious towards anyone.

None of us are wearing the clothing of the people of Paradise yet.

Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future.

Show mercy and you will gained mercy.

Show respect and you will earn respect.

It really isn't difficult at all.

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Take care.

Be kind.

May Allah blessed.

Akhir 2017.

  

Terima kasih untuk semua kenangan.

Terima kasih untuk setiap jatuh bangkit,

luka berdarah, ribut banjir

yang mendatang.

Sungguh,

banyak yang aku belajar.

Terlalu banyak.

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Yang pergi --

terima kasih mewarnai kisah ini.

Yang baru kemari --

moga terus melakar memori.

Yang tak lokek disisi --

tetaplah temani hingga nafas terhenti.

Jangan pernah menyesal dengan apa yang terjadi.

Demi Tuhan,

manisnya kan menjengah nanti.

InsyaAllah.

Hidup mana yang tidak pahit, sulit.

Namun itulah rencahnya.

Buat kita merasa si namanya bahagia.

Sesekali menangislah.

Usah ditahan segala pedih.

Kita masih sebatas manusia.

Yang ada jiwa dan rasa.

Namun tetaplah terus berjuang.

Bukan untuk sesiapa, tetapi buat Tuhanmu cuma.

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Terima kasih untuk segala.

credit #perempuanmatahari

Luka.

I think what hurts the most is

when you give your all to someone.

Through thick and thin,

you are there for them,

you stick with them,

no matter what.

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Then one day they just give up.

They won't even fight for you.

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The one thing you would never have done,

they did with no hesitation. 

p/s : Semoga kesusahan bisa mengajar erti terus asa.

Tanda kasih.

Bahagiaku bukan kerana memiliki segalanya,

tapi kerana bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.

Bahagiaku bukan kerana emas permata,

tapi kerana punya cinta & kasih sayang keluarga yang dijaga.

Bahagiaku bukan kerana aku sempurna,

tapi kerana aku belajar menjadi yang terbaik apa yang aku bisa.

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Sungguh,

kita takkan merasa bahagia hingga mampu

menikmati, mensyukuri, menghargai

dan menjaga segala kurniaNya.

Ya Allah

atas rasa syukur ini,

kurniakanlah kami kebahagiaan untuk selamanya

didunia & akhirat

Aminn --